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April 05, 2005
I can't keep doing this anymore
Its 4:30AM.
I am not an insomniac.
But sometimes I end up staying up entirely too late.
Mainly, its due to FPS games. Specifically, Return to Castle Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory. Yes its a cool game, but it is also *free*. And there still is a sizeable community which plays this game.
This game has been "trouble" in the sense that I haven't been able to put it down for very long every since I loaded it.
I guess you could say I have an addictive personality. If I enjoy something, I continue to enjoy it until I finish it or get tired of it. That works with books -- I may try to read a book all in one sitting, but eventually, I can finish it. Older video games that I've played, you also eventually finish the game and can put it away. You eventually learn all the lines of your favorite movie and repeated viewings do get old.
The problem with this particular game, is that it is a network game. That means that each game I play is different every time. Some days I get my butt whooped, other days I rule the roost (much fewer than the whooped days, since I actually suck.)
The other bad thing is that this is an FPS. So I pretty much turn my brain off from a thinking perspective, and just play. The combination of the two sometimes has me looking at the clock and going, "Damn, how long have I been playing for". Also, the levels just recycle over and over. So I can just keep playing without end, theoretically.
Not a good thing.
Definitely not now, with everything else going on.
And the fact is, I'm not a spring chicken anymore. I can't just play until the wee hours and expect to be able to bounce back well for a full day of work.
Although ironically, I only picked up this habit in the past 2 years. I only started playing networked FPS games regularly (actually, just this one) in 03. Actually, I did play older ones, such as Duke Nukem 3D, a classic, and the mother of them all, Doom, but I would only play at work, and never at home, since I didn't have a fast enough connection until recently.
I really have to stop doing this.
And now its 15 to 5.
*sigh*
good morning.
Posted by spoof747 at April 5, 2005 04:36 AM