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November 02, 2005
milestones
Yesterday was our 2 year wedding anniversary.
It was interesting to see the different directions that life takes you on in a 2 year timeframe. Obviously 2 years ago, we got married. We spent nearly an entire year planning for this one day, but all came off swimmingly, except for some minor details.
Last year, I surprised Jenn by whisking her off to San Francisco. We stayed in a sumptuous room in the Mandarin Oriental and spent the next day walking around the city. We actually walked from downtown along the waterfront all the way to the Palace of Fine Arts.
This year, I managed to take the day off (which was a feat in and of itself). I told work that I was taking a true VACATION day, instead of the usual "Working from home" day. But with Naomi and with my back limiting us, our day consisted of going to the mall for a family portrait (first formal one of all of us together) and coming home to clean up for the window installers coming today. Man, this even sounds boring to me as I type it.
Jenn obviously is very understanding, and we both agreed that this was the best use of our time this year. At the same time, I sometimes think back to when we were able to drop things at a moment's notice and do what we wanted to do. Or our ability to just decided to take a side route and head to another destination we didn't plan for. Even our propensity to just wander and take in sights and sounds. Given Naomi's age right now, we're pretty much Point A to Point B when we go out. She's been very clear (by her crying volume) that side trips aren't the best thing for her right now. I sincerely hope that this will change at some point. I remember a friend of mine telling me that when he was a kid, his dad used to just drive somewhere with the family and purposely get lost, just to try and find their way home. That sounds like fun -- I only wish that Naomi will enjoy it as well.
Sometimes its just strange to see where your life has been and compare it to where it is now. I can't say that I regret any of it, but sometimes I remember what has gone before and bask in it, especially the things that just can't be done right now. Will we be able to do this stuff once Naomi gets older? Most likely. But right now, the days feel more like a grind. I want/need a break, but that's also something I can no longer do. Even at the position I am at work, since I am responsible for other people, I can't just blow off work at a moment's notice. Maybe if I can just get work to fit back into the 40 hour/week box (ok, maybe 45) then things will be better.
Damn, I need to stop complaining.
Posted by spoof747 at November 2, 2005 09:39 AM