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January 11, 2006
its a whole new ballgame
how is your 2006 going so far? following resolutions? doing anything differently?
I don't make resolutions by choice because I don't feel I do a good job of holding to them. Yet for some reason, I've been trying to follow some unspoken resolutions of mine with actually a fair degree of success. I guess I fear putting them out on paper in stark black and white and (eventually) failing to fulfill them. One of the one I've been wanting to do is help out around the house and help out Jenn more often. There were too many times last year, especially towards the end of the year when I was working on the release when I would just come home and be a zombie, leaving Jenn to cook what she could and clean up and still try and take care of Naomi. At best, I would hold Naomi while I was watching TV or something like that. I'm trying to get to a more equitable division of home and work and thereby have more time to help at home. So far, I've had that, partially because we finished one major release (although there are others on the horizon). But I've made it a point to try and help clean up around the house because I know how tired Jenn is after a full day with our daughter.
Other than that, the main goal is to get work to a point where I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing and working a decent amount of hours (as opposed to the indecent amounts I'm working now). Some of my prayers have appeared to be answered already. Samir sent Issam back to our project to help me with hiring out the open spots on the team that I haven't had time to fill so far. They're also going to help with documentation of process, which is yet another thing that has needed to be done for so long here but I could never start because all my resources were fully occupied.
The beginning of a new year is always unusual to me because there is this orgy of energy that is expended at the end of the previous year. First with Thanksgiving, then the mad mad holiday season, with its shopping rush and enforced Christmas spirit, and then the stereotypical New Year's celebration. Regardless of whether you participate in any of that, the world around you does and its almost as if the next 3 months are spent recovering, spiritually and financially. You can see this even with schoolkids. We are indoctrinated into this mentality because there are holidays for all three of these events, and then the next major holiday? Easter (And no, I'm not neglecting Martin Luther King, but its not considered a "major" holiday, as it is a US-only event and not even recognized by everyone here). And for some reason, my friends who have birthdays during these first few months of the year tend towards low-key events too.
So it feels like everyone disappears and you are left to your own devices. Which is fine. Right now, I'm all for getting myself together. Myself = taking care of the house and home (what else?) Its so funny to step outside myself and watch Jenn and I eagerly pore through ads for Lowe's and Home Depot and watch HGTV and discuss how to paint, rearrange or buy furniture and think back to a time when this type of conversation would have gone over our heads because we were too busy thinking about the next movie to watch or the next get-together to plan or how fun was last weekend? Maybe we'll get back to that mode of thinking once we do what we want to the house. I definitely don't want to be one of *those* people who get trapped into a never-ending cycle of remodeling and redecorating. I want to finish and then step back and enjoy.
Posted by spoof747 at January 11, 2006 08:15 PM